Thursday, October 22, 2015

Jukebox

Play it again
Another round
No, you can have the peanuts
Funny how in a packed room
You still find yourself alone
Ask questions
Looking for answers
And for what?
So many want to be strong
And it is with experience
I see the pain in everyone's eyes
The woman who tries her best
To be ladylike because she wants to hide
How much of a nympho she is
That guy who is quiet
Not because he is shy
But because he preys on women
Who see the silent type as weak
I see their flaws
The couple who are there laughing
Trying to repair their relationship
That is already finished
Even the bartender
Who fills ever glass that is called for
And yet is empty in his soul
Because his fiancée left him
For the girl next door in apartment 3A
No
I don't need alcohol to see
What it is that they all hide
Nor do I need it
To drown out their sorrows
It's not even for me to escape the cries
In my head from all of the tears
I hold inside
No
I just need something that is stronger
Than the salty swallow of my own saliva
To let me know
That I'm not alone

Screaming Whispers

You have removed your cup
From the well of my soul
Leaving me to overflow
From my containment
My chambers
Burst

Wednesday, October 21, 2015

Black and White

Safari lands
Desert plains
Somewhere high in the mountains
I wish to see you clearly
As the firmament above

I Celebrate Alone

Hotel room paid for
Gift on the table
Bottle chilling on ice
And a phone call
Saying that we're through

Monday, October 19, 2015

Listless

My blood courses with anger
Emotions creating undercurrents
Ripping apart my soul
But I drift out further
Hoping that the storm
...

Over The Skyline

Laying in this bed
Reaching for emptiness
Hoping one of those lights
Are you thinking of me

Saturday, October 17, 2015

Darkened Sun Eclipse

Destiny fulfilled with the release of
Ever interrupting entities with no rhythm
Changing the order of orbiting perfection
Taking the place of where our worlds
Were supposed to align
And now fascinating you
To forget this galaxy

Friday, October 16, 2015

Subtle Notes of Melancholy

Underneath
The silky moon
There lives a heart
That plays a tune
Of loneliness

Until There Is Nothing Left

This feeling of
Unending fire
Consuming the moral fiber
Of my soul
You hold me to the flames
And laugh

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

Can You Ride A Cosmic Starfall?

Surfing silver lights
Balls of gas emitting trails
Giving sight of the very path
That my heart took that night

Tuesday, October 13, 2015

Gathering Disperse

Crashing down to leveled horizon
But still within orbit
So close that you can be touched
Yet distant because of irrelevance
Not you to me
But myself to you

Monday, October 12, 2015

Shift Change

I
Don't want to be the one you contact
Because the one you desire
Is not available

Sunday, October 11, 2015

Saturday, October 10, 2015

Auld Lang Syne of Sorts

Will you join me?
Sit and sip with me
To determine what will be
Our fate?
Because this time last year
We were each other's holiday song
But now
Not even
A drunken hum

Flush

The rain falls perfectly
To mix with my tears
I'll be damned

Wednesday, October 7, 2015

Mark 3:27

The Mess Age

Don't push me
I'm beyond the edge
Teetering on whether to end it all
Or end it now
The partition is thin
Able to be rent by the slightest touch
And then
I breathe
My inhale was too much
I fall out of safety
Into the openness of flight
But gravity has a way
Of letting you know
That falling in love
Is different from falling for love

Repentant Love

Now I lay me down to weep
I play the songs that help me sleep
And though I wish to hold you close
I know that you are now a ghost
My heart with you will always stay
I cannot lie and I won't play
I know that you have called it quits
But yet my soul still feels your lips


Sunday, October 4, 2015

You, Me and His Story

In this there is judgment
In this there is damned
In this there is contention
In this
There is what many understand
Yet refuse to acknowledge
I am he
Holding on to the hope that yesterday will return
And today will begin our tomorrow
Without reason
Watching her smile hoping
That her decision was right
But yearning for her to feel wronged
I am she
Looking forward to avoid the eyes of familiarity
For even though I know that he is
The best for me
I want better
Than this
I need to know
That what I knew
Isn't all there is to know
I must go on
I am he
Her past is not a concern to me
Outwardly
For she sees me before her
Ready to take that step
But inwardly
He frustrates me
Because I trust her to stay
But he hopes that I go
And that will never be
Because as long as she is with me
There is no need for history
To repeat itself

Saturday, October 3, 2015

Astral Pain

The sky is full of stars
Or is it the illumination of her words
That have speckled my vision
The dark of her valley
The very space
That no light hits
Has become my North star
Ursa Major feels so minor
Because her constellation
Is beyond the zodiac
Even though she is born in the twelve
I find her beyond the thirteen
Chasing her into a galactic storm
Looking for her to explain why
She had become like the star of the East
Real
Yet without discernment
I awake to find myself
Naked
Bathing in her subtlety
Of stating that she will always be with me
While never seeing her again
I lay in a cold embrace
Of dew on the blades of grass
And tears
Wishing that I could hide my soul
In the Big Dipper

Friday, October 2, 2015

Dripping Blood Moons

Deathly silence
Transparent hollows of emptied chambers
That once pumped love
Being drained without choice
Following the chasm that is grooved out
Each drop removing light from the eyes
As face becomes flush
The void is growing thick
Heavy upon the chest
As the lungs are collapsed
Where is the rebirth?
Blackness covers the soul
As above
The lesser light bathes
In the life source
Filmed by those lost
To the sting of love