Double Edge

You, Me and His Story

In this there is judgment
In this there is damned
In this there is contention
In this
There is what many understand
Yet refuse to acknowledge
I am he
Holding on to the hope that yesterday will return
And today will begin our tomorrow
Without reason
Watching her smile hoping
That her decision was right
But yearning for her to feel wronged
I am she
Looking forward to avoid the eyes of familiarity
For even though I know that he is
The best for me
I want better
Than this
I need to know
That what I knew
Isn't all there is to know
I must go on
I am he
Her past is not a concern to me
Outwardly
For she sees me before her
Ready to take that step
But inwardly
He frustrates me
Because I trust her to stay
But he hopes that I go
And that will never be
Because as long as she is with me
There is no need for history
To repeat itself

Astral Pain

The sky is full of stars
Or is it the illumination of her words
That have speckled my vision
The dark of her valley
The very space
That no light hits
Has become my North star
Ursa Major feels so minor
Because her constellation
Is beyond the zodiac
Even though she is born in the twelve
I find her beyond the thirteen
Chasing her into a galactic storm
Looking for her to explain why
She had become like the star of the East
Real
Yet without discernment
I awake to find myself
Naked
Bathing in her subtlety
Of stating that she will always be with me
While never seeing her again
I lay in a cold embrace
Of dew on the blades of grass
And tears
Wishing that I could hide my soul
In the Big Dipper

Dripping Blood Moons

Deathly silence
Transparent hollows of emptied chambers
That once pumped love
Being drained without choice
Following the chasm that is grooved out
Each drop removing light from the eyes
As face becomes flush
The void is growing thick
Heavy upon the chest
As the lungs are collapsed
Where is the rebirth?
Blackness covers the soul
As above
The lesser light bathes
In the life source
Filmed by those lost
To the sting of love

The Sound of Quiet

Fashioned in stilled wonder
The beat of my heart creates
Exaggerated echoes
Resounding from the hollows within
Filling the space without
Between us
Words make no sense here
Words mate know sincere meaning
This is called emotion
Which speaks volumes
In the catalog of my mind
I hear you

In Loving You To Life, I Die

Though we gotta say goodbye
For the summer
Baby I promise you this
I'll send you all my love every day in a letter
Sealed with a kiss

I could have loved her more
Been more open to the fact that
Stepping out on a ledge
Would have been her landing pad
Couldn't imagine ever being the reason
Her heart breaks
But lately
All I've accomplished was
Being the hammer
Dropping the ball repeatedly
This isn't what was supposed to be
I was supposed to do a better job
Now my voice in her ear is a pain
And that was never my intention
My feelings are brewing insurrection
This indiscretion is more than just
Something
That tickles the sinew that is
In the hollow of my thigh
I can't walk straight because she
Completely screwed my insecurity
Confidently stating my love for her
Only left me open to be secluded
To my fear of being alone
I worshiped the ground she walked on
Although she floated on air
Cursed the extra 5 grains in her 12 bread
Because she was only hungry for 7
She's my queen to be
A vision of perfection
That Akeem couldn't leave America without
And somehow I went from having her
To losing her
Before the king could even make it
Through customs
I am not ashamed of living her
I'm not ashamed of loving her
I'm ashamed of losing her
For in her
I love
I laugh
I have my beginning of happiness
Which is now
Only a memory
In our lives passing
She is always my love
Not just a lover
More than a friend
But less than a god
I die
Heartbroken
Because I broke her heart