Lunch Date

You never really knew
How much you mean to me
I gave you my heart
My mind
My soul
And in return
You took it
And gave me a world
So cold
I tried to understand
How can a man be understood
When secretly he has to live
Stood over
They say men don't hurt
They don't cry
And they don't care
But that's not true
Because men do dare
To open their mind
And try to tell her
That she is so fine
But not in body
But perfect in mind
And in time
She will see why
That she will be mine
But that's not the case
.
.
.
The case is official
The stains in the pillow
The steps in the stairs
You do not care
That I opened a door
Just so you can ignore that
I share
My everything
For you to treat it like nothing
I showed you real
And you said I'm bluffing
If I could take it back
I would not change it
But I'll show you something more
The blackness I live in
The darkness I sit in
The void that I spit in
They don't know beginning
I live in the ending
I sit on the building and look down
Seeing if there is a crack
I can fit in
I gave you my heart
You gave me your ass
I don't even have a farm
What I'm gonna do with that?
Even if I had worked it
You would say, "Chill"
Cuz it's just ass
As if I only wanted the work
You driving me berserk
I wanted us to last
At least long enough to laugh
The last laugh is the past
And now you hustle on
I'm another gone
Thinking I wouldn't mind
But I'm still stuck in mine
My feelings are not that strong
To handle you telling me
That you're glad that I love you
But you don't care much for me...

Jukebox

Play it again
Another round
No, you can have the peanuts
Funny how in a packed room
You still find yourself alone
Ask questions
Looking for answers
And for what?
So many want to be strong
And it is with experience
I see the pain in everyone's eyes
The woman who tries her best
To be ladylike because she wants to hide
How much of a nympho she is
That guy who is quiet
Not because he is shy
But because he preys on women
Who see the silent type as weak
I see their flaws
The couple who are there laughing
Trying to repair their relationship
That is already finished
Even the bartender
Who fills ever glass that is called for
And yet is empty in his soul
Because his fiancée left him
For the girl next door in apartment 3A
No
I don't need alcohol to see
What it is that they all hide
Nor do I need it
To drown out their sorrows
It's not even for me to escape the cries
In my head from all of the tears
I hold inside
No
I just need something that is stronger
Than the salty swallow of my own saliva
To let me know
That I'm not alone

Screaming Whispers

You have removed your cup
From the well of my soul
Leaving me to overflow
From my containment
My chambers
Burst

Black and White

Safari lands
Desert plains
Somewhere high in the mountains
I wish to see you clearly
As the firmament above

I Celebrate Alone

Hotel room paid for
Gift on the table
Bottle chilling on ice
And a phone call
Saying that we're through

Listless

My blood courses with anger
Emotions creating undercurrents
Ripping apart my soul
But I drift out further
Hoping that the storm
...

Over The Skyline

Laying in this bed
Reaching for emptiness
Hoping one of those lights
Are you thinking of me